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This song is an exercise in catharsis. We've lost a lot of good friends to mental illness. We want to let people know that they aren't alone, while honoring those who didn't make it. We've poured in our darkest emotions and come out the other end with our heaviest song yet.
lyrics
A contradiction,
A hypocrite.
Too wicked for the righteous,
And too benign for the malignant.
I… I am not who you think I am.
I’m not who I’ve led you to believe.
Sometimes I wish the bond between my atoms would fail.
Evaporate!
Evaporate!
Lost in the atmosphere.
x2
Fingertips scratching at my skin.
My mind’s wearing thin.
My mind’s wearing thin.
Depths of mind too deep to swim,
Too dark to find my way back again. (Way back again)
I fear these shackles within.
Forgive me,
Forgive me for my careless collapse.
Chorus:
Blue skies out my window.
Birds kiss the sky,
Praying to the sun (Praying to the sun).
But I’ve locked myself inside, (Praying to the, Praying to the…)
Stripped of all colour. (Praying to the, Praying to the…)
Only shades of grey live here now.
Words unveil my naked soul.
Where I’m free and unconfined.
Release all my hate to make me whole.
Ancient, Immortal.
Become the wind.
You wanted honesty.
I’ll give you all of me.
X4
I’m choking on each breath I take.
Barbed wire words cut my throat from the inside.
I wish that I could spit them out,
But telling you would just bleed me dry.
Sometimes I wish the bond between my atoms would fail.
Evaporate!
Evaporate!
Lost in the atmosphere.
x2
You wanted honesty.
I’ll give you all of me.
X2
Become the wind.
You wanted honesty.
I’ll give you all of me.
X2
Become the wind. (I’ve locked myself inside)
You wanted honesty.
I’ll give you all of me.
X2
Chorus:
Blue skies out my window.
Birds kiss the sky,
Praying to the sun (Praying to the sun).
But I’ve locked myself inside, (Praying to the, Praying to the…)
Stripped of all colour. (Praying to the, Praying to the…)
Only shades of grey live here now.
A contradiction,
A hypocrite.
Too wicked for the righteous,
And too benign for the malignant.
I… I am not who you think I am.
I’m not who I’ve led you to believe.
Sometimes I wish… (Depths of mind too deep to swim)
credits
released October 29, 2021
Composition:
Lyrics: Gregory Van Kerkhof & Brandon Pratt
Additional Lyrics: Simz Kulla
Guitars: Erick Gerber
Bass: Gregory Van Kerkhof & Erick Gerber
Drums: Matt Sletcher & Erick Gerber
Vocal Melodies/Rhythms: Brandon Pratt, Gregory Van Kerkhof & Erick Gerber
Additional Vocal Melodies: Simz Kulla
Synths: Brandon Pratt, Gregory Van Kerkhof & Erick Gerber
Arrangement: Red Helen & Nick Argyros
Production:
Recorded at: Audio Militia, Johannesburg, South Africa.
Drum Engineering: Richard Staub, Craig Hawkins, Paul Norwood & Brandon Pratt
Recording Engineers: Richard Staub & Brandon Pratt
Producer: Nick Argyros
Editing: Gregory Van Kerkhof, Erick Gerber & Brandon Pratt
Mix: Brandon Pratt
Master: Dylan Ellis
Performance:
Brandon Pratt: Lead vocals & production.
Erick Gerber: Guitar & clean vocals.
Gregory Van Kerkhof: Bass, clean vocals & synths.
Matthew Sletcher: Drums
Simz Kulla: Guest Vocals
Track Art:
Illustration: Christi Du Toit
Concept: Greg Van Kerkhof, Brandon Pratt, Erick Gerber, Pieter Du Plessis and Christi Du Toit.
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